Friday, May 7, 2010
Gorilla In A Cage
I have had very strong feeling about something before, I actually have very strong feeling about something now actually. If I could describe myself to any animal I would have to say that it would be the gorilla locked in a cage. This is in no way to indicate what I would really do in a situation but only about how I feel. I never get this crazy, out of control, and controlled by my emotions. Well, I have at some points in my life but hey it happens to everyone at some point. Anger is a very strong feeling for me, even more so because I usually do not get very angry often you usually have to do something really, really, really bad to me or someone I love, or something really, really, really stupid. I relate to myself like a gorilla locked in a cage because I feel like it is exactly how I feel when I get mad. I’m stuck in a cage with my anger by ,myself and no matter how many people I go or talk to no one makes me feel any better. I’m in the cage on my won with no one to help me to get out of it or to get me out of what it is that I’ am feeling inside. I just want to beat everything, slam and hit it very hard with all the strength that I have in me. I want to beat my chest hard scream at the top of my lungs and grab the person or thing that made me very mad and throw them across the room. This sounds horrible of me to do but remember it is just how I feel and not something that I would ever really do in a real situation. I let my mind go wild to try to make me feel better. A gorilla locked in a cage is also a good example of how I feel because I fell like I can not get out to actually fix or confront my problem. No matter how much I bang and hit the cage to try to get to the source that made me mad I can not get out. I feel like they are outside the cage making fun of me and only taunting me more because I can not get out to reach it. It feels like it is so close yet it feels like it is miles away just because I’ am unable to get to it. I feel so strong and angry yet I am so limited about what I can do when I am angry. Over all I do not feel to bad about admitting this because I know that we have all at some point felt this same way if not even worse. Anger is a strong emotion one of the best that I know and definitely one that I like to keep locked up as much as possible for the very reason that it could hurt some one really bad with its strength.
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Touche on your metaphor! After reading your entire blog I really understood what you were trying to convey and I loved, loved, loved, loved how you connected your anger to a gorilla locked in a cage. I think we’re very similar when it comes to how we deal with our anger. I felt as if you were reading my mind when you said that no matter who you talk to or what you do, nothing helps and you feel trapped inside the chaotic mess of your mind. You see, I wrote my blog on guns and rights and yadda yadda, and I take my anger out on the targets I shoot when I practice. I actually get to go this weekend and I’m so excited because it’s been a really stressful week and I need to get rid of some of this aggression. Lol I, too, get really angry with people and want to throw them around the room (but I can’t and that’s lame haha). And it does feel like the people around you are taunting you when you’re really upset. Again, I really liked your metaphor and your blog.
ReplyDeleteA real nice blog you wrote. And it was a very good way of relating the feelings of anger. I’m a big fan of nature, and I love watching different films and shows on animals. I learn a lot from them. But I especially find the apes to be intriguing. It seems that not a chimp or gorilla documentary goes by without showing them in some sort of angry or highly excitable state. And when these creatures get real mad, the potential harm they can cause is very great. But I think it was clever how you related your anger to a gorilla being in a cage. One can only imagine the frustration and greater intensity of anger a gorilla might feel once it has been locked up. And I think that frustration can be a huge factor in a lot of the anger that we as people feel. I really liked the close that you gave on your blog. It is very thought provoking. Anger really is a strong emotion. And it can also lead you down many paths, some undesirable ones at that. And like you said, anger is something that is best kept inside because of all the damage that it can do.
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed reading your blog because you were not afraid of being raw and honest. I must say though that I was reading it didn’t sound so much like anger is what you were feeling. I have a theory call me crazy, but I don’t think anger is a real emotion I feel that anger is just a mask for what people are really feeling. For example, in your blog you kept mentioning the fact that you were locked up, no one was able to help you, no one was listening, understanding, and you couldn’t solve the problem. It sounded more to me like you felt sad, alone, and frustrated. Sure you mentioned things like throwing, slamming, etc. However I think those physical reactions were the way you went about expressing the emotional reaction which was frustration. I think that when people are not in tune with there emotions they turn to things such as anger and rage to solve there problems. I know that you said that was all hypothetical, but I am just generalizing here. I have always had this theory and I know it is not one that most would endorse. However in my opinion the emotion you expressed with the caged gorilla, was frustration and sadness, not anger.
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