Its the end! God bless you all!

I can not believe that this class and semester has come to and end SO fast. To be honest I was a little overwhelmed in the beginning. I had not idea where to start and I had no idea whether I was going to be able to keep up with this whole online course! But gladly I did, I feel so accomplished. It was the little steps that got me this far, like everything else in life, baby steps all the way to get to the bigger picture. I really enjoyed this class. Best of all though I have to say I enjoyed the blogging most of all. When I first saw that we had to write 500 words minimum on certain topics I would wonder how I was going to be able to elaborate on subjects that I was not really interested or passionate about. However I did it somehow. You can do accomplish so much by just putting time to it. By being patient and giving it time, you can not expect to have everything come at you at once. Now that we are at the end I find that I would even go over the minimum sometimes when it came to blogs and other assignments. This has taught me to not be satisfied with the minimum if there is more that I can add to anything why not? Unless there is limitations on how far you can go and even then sometimes we go above and beyond. I really enjoyed interacting with my classmates. Everyone was so respectful and everyone did their part when they were supposed to which I really appreciated. Most of all I was glad that I was able to freely speak about my passion and the love of my life and that is God. I have never encountered people who would be so tolerant and patient with me when it came to class setting as far as sharing my beliefs. That is one of the things that stays most in my mind that I was really able to open and express my feelings with out being attacked by others. I am sure that I am not the only one who felt this respect from everyone. Everyone was so respectful and is one of the reasons I even looked forward to blogging. I would enjoy reading others thoughts and different matters as well. This was my first time doing something as enjoyable as this in a class. I hope that is not the only time I encounter such assignments in my future classes. I truly believe that the more a teacher makes things enjoyable yet, productive that is when students really learn and take things with them after the class. Thank you Ms. Gross for being so awesome helpful, caring and fun! I thank my classmate as well for everything but most of all the respect and making the class so enjoyable. God Bless you all and may God truly bless your families and lives!

All we need is love

The romantic love poems of earlier poets and writers have strikingly similar themes to the love songs of our modern time. Love is powerful and is something that can only slightly be described in songs and poems. It is so strong, so needed and so desired for by every living being. It is what drives us in life and what encourages us to go on. All we need is love and with out it we do not exist because we are relational, loving creatures. However these love songs and poems have set the expectations of love on such a high level that is has caused many to fall short when trying to reach it. It is something so strong and intangible that words fail to translate and communicate fully. Our culture has romanticized to such an unrealistic level for humans that it has become the common cause of broken, disappointed and let down hearts. I will focus mainly on the first two lines in Song by C. Day Lewis “ Come, live with me and be my love, and we will all the pleasure prove” these words demonstrate exactly my point. “We will all the pleasure prove” expresses that in finding love and being with the one we love will full fill all our hopes, dreams, desires, and pleasures. “Our other half” it was will complete us. I however do not believe this to be true, we can not set such expectations on another human being it is nearly impossible! There is no way that one person will be able to do all that for you in your life because people will always let us down. I am not trying to be pessimistic because I do one day do hope to find love and be happy but I know not to set all my hopes, dreams, pleasures, and happiness into one person. Were just humans! Such expectations should be set on God and God alone because He is the only one capable of such love. A song expresses the same expectations would be Mario’s “ Let me love you” song the following lines resemble in meaning “You should let me love you, let me be the one to give you everything you want and need”. The poem and song both try to fulfill their lovers EVERY need. As much as one wish they could do that they simply can not we do not have the capacity to do that for another person or vise versa. As romantic and beautiful as words can be they can also be misleading and put ones hopes up so far into a place were they can not reach but I think that our desires have always been the same. Both earlier poets and song writers have expressed that desire and need in the past and present, it will also be expressed in the future because that is what we all want and need. The depths and desires of love are the same that is one thing that never loses its meaning throughout cultures, people or time. Love is endless, unfailing, and everlasting it surpasses the grips of time and is something that will always fulfill humanity because in the end we ALL need love. Its no wonder it is around us every day of our lives.

What myths teach us about ourselves

The Creation of life, earth and everything in existence has different stories through out all of the world. How it all really began and who created everything varies greatly from region to region, culture to culture, and religion to religion. However almost every single story about creation has its creator. The one or “ones” who created it all uniquely and in precise detail and as a result we are all here. The story of creation that I believe in is in the Creation of God, one man. He created the night and day, water and land, animals and above all Adam and Eve. Not only did he create it all he created it all in seven days, He spoke it into existence and got it all right the first time because He is God and He is amazing. While watching the myths that we were assigned I could not help but notice that they all had one thing in common they all had a creator. There was no BANG that just blew everything up perfectly together. There was a god who created it all and therefore all creation worshiped the god and praised the god for it. The similarities in these myths are that they all have a god or gods responsible, which shows how people all have a desire to know that someone or something created it all someone or something is responsible. The confidence in knowing that there is someone who is in control and above all watching over us. As humans we need to look up to someone or something. Whether we realize it or not we all worship someone or something we depend and have our hopes set on something other than ourselves. All around the world people either worship many gods or they worship just one or something. It can be the Greek gods, the gods of the Mayans, or one God. It can be our families our careers, hobbies, school, and friends. We are relational and creative creatures we desire to have someone and something. All theses stories about creation speak a lot of what we as humans want, need and desire in our lives. We desire a sense of security in something or someone outside of our selves because we can not do it on our own. We always some how manage to mess things up and its just apart of life there is only so much we as humans can do. Then comes God who can get us through it all and He is in control of it all. These myths and stories about creation only solidify and prove that everyone across the earth is the same we all have it in us. We all need to look up and know that someone is up there taking care of it all. We set our lives on it and it determines how and why we live the way we do. Some acknowledge Gods existence and some do not but regardless that does not change the fact that He is up there and in charge. He is above all and the one who created it all.

Letting Go

In the Secret Life of Bees there are numerous burdens that are carried by every single individual in the story like every one else in life. The ones that I will focus on will be on the burdens of T. ray and Lily. The burdens that they both carry are very similar yet they react differently to them. T.ray carries the burden of knowing that his wife left him and she did not leave him for another she just left him because he was destroying her inside, he ruined her. T. ray must of felt like he was the cause of everything. He deprived Lily’s mother from happiness and life. He was not able to give her what she needed. He was not able to make her happy so she just left him. Upon her return he finds her coming back but not for him. She came back for Lily. This must have been another burden for him feeling that not only did she leave him, she was also taking all they had their daughter. Poor T.ray just had a lot of things hitting him and I truly feel that even though he did not cope with everything properly I can see where he was coming from. His wife did not want him and when Lily grew up neither did she. He was burdened by loneliness and guilt of possibly being the reason as to why his wife and daughter were unhappy. Lily had a similar yet different burden. She had the burden of taking the life of her own mother. What she loved most in the world is the very thing that she took away from herself. Her father would remind her that she was the one to kill her, which to him was probably away to vent his emotions somehow. Not only would T.ray remind her that she took her mothers own life but he would also tell her that her mother left her and did not want her. T. ray would say these things to her to make her feel the same way he did, unwanted. Towards the end of the story Lily comes to realize that what her father was telling her along was true, which gave her and even heavier burden. She felt like no one wanted her either. I believe that T.ray and Lily were both heavily burdened by what happened to Deborah. Her leaving and her death affected both their lives and their futures. It is no wonder that they acted out in the impulsive ways that they both did. They were burdened by the death of Deborah, her unhappiness and their lack of ability to change how she felt. They both felt responsible for not making her happy enough to make her stay, which I believe is a very heavy burden. However I am glad that at they end they were both able to let go of the past and hurts. They needed to close the door behind them to better able see what was ahead in life for them and finding happiness and freedom in letting go.

Gorilla In A Cage

I have had very strong feeling about something before, I actually have very strong feeling about something now actually. If I could describe myself to any animal I would have to say that it would be the gorilla locked in a cage. This is in no way to indicate what I would really do in a situation but only about how I feel. I never get this crazy, out of control, and controlled by my emotions. Well, I have at some points in my life but hey it happens to everyone at some point. Anger is a very strong feeling for me, even more so because I usually do not get very angry often you usually have to do something really, really, really bad to me or someone I love, or something really, really, really stupid. I relate to myself like a gorilla locked in a cage because I feel like it is exactly how I feel when I get mad. I’m stuck in a cage with my anger by ,myself and no matter how many people I go or talk to no one makes me feel any better. I’m in the cage on my won with no one to help me to get out of it or to get me out of what it is that I’ am feeling inside. I just want to beat everything, slam and hit it very hard with all the strength that I have in me. I want to beat my chest hard scream at the top of my lungs and grab the person or thing that made me very mad and throw them across the room. This sounds horrible of me to do but remember it is just how I feel and not something that I would ever really do in a real situation. I let my mind go wild to try to make me feel better. A gorilla locked in a cage is also a good example of how I feel because I fell like I can not get out to actually fix or confront my problem. No matter how much I bang and hit the cage to try to get to the source that made me mad I can not get out. I feel like they are outside the cage making fun of me and only taunting me more because I can not get out to reach it. It feels like it is so close yet it feels like it is miles away just because I’ am unable to get to it. I feel so strong and angry yet I am so limited about what I can do when I am angry. Over all I do not feel to bad about admitting this because I know that we have all at some point felt this same way if not even worse. Anger is a strong emotion one of the best that I know and definitely one that I like to keep locked up as much as possible for the very reason that it could hurt some one really bad with its strength.

Dont Give Up

This is a very sensitive topic and opinion varies according to circumstances and the things that every individual has gone through in their lives. My opinion on the matter of suicide is just an opinion but my opinion also stems from my beliefs that no one should ever take their own life. I can not say that I have ever actually considered suicide but the thought of it leaves anyone very, very heavyhearted. As easy as it is to say that one has the right to take their own life, its sounds kind of harsh. One has to consider that if someone is having thoughts of suicide it must be because they are going through a lot. I could understand why someone one would have those thoughts or plan to follow those actions but, that does not justify them because life gets better. Things always look up in life, one just needs to examine the things outside their circumstances and situation. Rather than looking at what is in front of you and out of your control look around and see everything else in life. Think of it like a really, really nice car and it just so happens to have a big dent in it from an accident. If all you see is the dent in that car your missing out on everything else about it, it still works and it still looks nice from other angles. We can easily become consumed by the current things in our life that it begins to take over. Although I know that a life has extremely more value than a nice car you could look at the metaphor in the same way. Look at the good things, and if there is nothing good around achieve to make it better and let that be your motivation. Strive for a better future in every way possible emotionally, physically, and mentally. Rather than seeing that dent and letting it define EVERYTHING. It might even be more than one dent, no matter how many dents there are there is nothing God ca not pull you out of. He has a plan and purpose for everyone. He breaks you down to build you up and in the end even stronger than you were before with an even sturdier foundation. For those of you who do not believe in that well just know that everything happens for a reason, as cliché as it sounds it so often said because it is so true. Life does get, and always will get better just hold on and see it through. Ask for help if you find that you can not do it alone. There is always someone there who will help as impossible or hard as that may sound to believe. Suicide is never justified as irreversible and low life can get. I could understand where one may be coming from and why they may see that as their only resort but the truth is that it is NOT. Just hold on and see what else life has to offer.

Rollercoasters

Betrayal is like a dark violent rollercoaster. ( For those who are afraid to ride them that is) When you first hear about it your knees go weak, your palms start to sweat, and your adrenaline starts going up. Your heart just drops so fast and so hard. You can not believe what you have just found out and you want to get out of it. But once your on it there is no turning back and no matter what you do or say you can not stop the feeling. The roller coaster is going and it is going super fast and strong. In the same way when you find out about some one you trust betraying you your heart drops with every detail you find out and your whole body just goes weak. You want to stop it but you cant. You find your self trapped you don’t know whether you want to feel mad, upset, scared, or just straight out start balling. In the same way when you are on a roller coaster (again for those of you who are scared of them) you can not decided whether you want to hold on tight or just let go and try to calm down. You almost wish you can go back and never have gone on the ride in the first place. In the same way when you find out that someone has betrayed you, you wish you could go back and change something so that things could be different. You run down a list of possibilities in your mind of “ Well if I would of said this I would not be here right now” or “ If you would of done this instead this would of never happened”. The emotions are so fast and so different from the one before or the next you don’t know what to feel. In the same way with a rollercoaster you can not see what kind loop, drop, or turn is up ahead. All you know is that can not wait till it is over. In the same way you can not wait till you just get to that person and just find out the truth and hear what they have to say about what you just found out. You want to just get to them and talk to them so that your emotions and thoughts are stable because unpredictability is never comforting. You do not know what to expect or how you are going to react. Betrayal is such a horrible thing to feel and a rollercoaster is just a minor comparison to what one person may feel. It may be even worse! I just hate rollercoaster and I absolutely can relate the feeling of betrayal to the feelings I get when I am on a rollercoaster. It takes control and you can not fight it once your in it. No matter what you do you can not do anything to make your self feel better or any more assured that you will be okay all the way through the end. it’s a dark feeling and it can become a very violent rollercoaster if not properly handled.