Friday, March 12, 2010
He takes and He gives
My life has changed so dramatically from just a few months ago, last summer to be exact. I have made new friends, experiences, and a better life. Its not to say that the people I had around me before were bad people, its just that they did things and acted in ways that weren’t in my character. I was really compromising my relationship with God in hanging out with the people I hung out with. It all started out innocent, we all did the same things to have a good time movies, games, and dinners. Which was good because I enjoyed the same things. However it slowly started getting out of hand, with people drinking, partying, and just doing things that went against what I believed in. The worst part is that I almost went along with it. I would go out with them and something always told me what are you doing here? Why are you with these people? Till it started getting louder and louder. When I hung out with them I heard it more and more. I knew that where I was and what I was doing was out of my character and against my beliefs. Then it all changed so dramatically, so quickly, it was like divine intervention. I had to let go of all those people and that life all with in a weeks time. I truly believe that it was distracting me from my relationship from God, and making me think and do things that went against what I believed in. I knew it was wrong, I knew it wasn’t me and I was going for it regardless. I feel that I truly defied a life style that is so common and destructive. Everyone seems to live it a life of partying, and drinking. I had to get out because I felt it consuming me. I had to give up people that were my friends for such a long time in order to stand up for what I believed in. I was no longer going to conform to what they were doing. It was a real change, and a dramatic turn but, I truly believe it was necessary. Its important to listen to that voice inside of your head. The one that asks you what are you doing here? Why are you with these people? We push is back way to often even though we know its right. We compromise what we believe in and go against it just to fit in. We do it to avoid being alone. However, we have to realize that we are never alone. There’s always something better. Looking back now on leaving that, I know I made the right choice. I walked away from that and immediately I was blessed with new friend and a new life. I’ve learned to listen to that voice now, because I know its right. it’s the voice of one who has bigger and better plans, the one who is in control and knows what He is doing. So the next time you hear that voice inside your head, and you know its true don’t ignore it, listen to it, because its going to take you to bigger and better places than you could of ever imagined.
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Your blog was very, very insightful and very personal. I really liked reading it and hearing your story to stand up for your self even when you’re the only one who thinks the way you do among your peers. I think it is very brave for you to do that and having to maybe face rejection or even having to take them out of your life because of it, no one ever likes to be alone they want to feel apart of something. I think that you are very smart and have an amazing sense of yourself for taking yourself out of a surrounding that you feel compromises who you are as a person. You went and did what was right for you even if no one else followed, that takes a lot of courage and I'm glad that you are happier as a person. I like the words of wisdom you gave he reader at the end; it was really genuine and heartfelt. You really want to be happy and have people be happy, even if the first step is that it is worth it in the end.
ReplyDeleteIn reading your blog I felt that I could really relate to what you were saying, for example in high school when I knew I was with the wrong people or doing the wrong things I felt like I did not know what else to do and to be honest I did not want to do anything else because I did not want to be alone, I did not want to be one of those people who did not have friends to hang out with. But like you said we never really are alone, it does not matter what someone believes in as long as they believe in something greater than themselves, something that is always there for them. I think this knowledge and security to break away from such situations comes from experience however, and for most people I think it is normal to go though a period where you feel lost and in need of people around you just for the sake of company, the most important thing to learn from those experiences is that you can rely on yourself and something bigger than you to get you through times when others would rather pull you down.
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